Why do we always assume the worst in relationships? Why do we always imagine the worst in situations? Is is because satan is influencing us, trying to sabotage every relationship we have? Is it because then when the situation plays out it won't ever be as bad as we thought. Does it help us see the light in dark situations? Being able to say "well at least he didn't cheat on me."
This ran through my mind because I went through my friends list today and cleaned out my friends list. I only unfriended about 6 people but they were people God has been telling me to 'leave behind.' There were two people in particular that i used to be very close with. As life took its course hearts were broken, scarred over and then the scars were re-opened. For several months God had been telling me to let go of them. I just couldn't do it at the time. I tried, but failed 3 months later. When i obeyed God today I thought they both were going to be extremely mad and have to know the reason I unfriended them. They both responded negatively,one more positively than the other. However I explained to them that they did nothing to make me mad, I just needed to move on from this chapter of my life, and that meant leaving somethings and some people behind. To my surprise the one I thought would freak out the most understood the most and wished me the best.In that moment I knew God had my back. I mean I knew that anyway but i could really feel him there with me, protecting me. I began to cry tears of joy for the second time in my life. Tears of joy not necessarily due to them being out of my life but because they reacted so much better than I thought they would. The other person i could tell was trying to be positive but couldn't quite understand why i was doing this. Even tried to lay the guilt trip on me. But this didn't matter to me because I was so amazed at how God had worked at the heart of the first person. God is great in that way.
With all these changes and closed doors come new adventures and opportunities. God is really working at my heart lately. He is presenting me with new tasks and new wonderfully supportive people. My eyes have been seeing God everywhere lately. This is the way it should have been all along but i am human and sometimes i fail.
I cannot wait to find out what else he has planned for me. I find myself wishing my homework was to immerse myself in God and edit video. That would be my dream life right there. The amazing thing is, the path God is taking me down seems to lead me straight to that. It's amazing, life is amazing, God is amazing.
..."and the Lord, who is the spirit, makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image." -2 Corinthians 3: 18b
In him,
CB
:) :) unfriending 50 acquaintances is easy. unfriending one good friend is pretty tough. Good for you! So cool to hear how it all kinda worked out though. :) New doors, new possibilities! can't wait to see that those are!
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